Tomorrow brings the sun
Kiss the world with fingers crossed
Your voice is comfort to me.
I don’t think I’ve felt my heartbreak and shatter so much since things ended with my first boyfriend.
The fact that I caused it compounds the pain.
I can’t seem to shake this heartache.
i am extremely good at pretending nothing happened
Water & stars
Aerial Photos of Poland’s Lakes Across Four Seasons by Kacper Kowalski
A beauty in all seasons
I used to be in a stifling relationship. So stifling that I wasn’t able to peek above the surface to realise that I was drowning in it. Beyond dissatisfied but not knowing the reason why, we had row after row. It was totally senseless, painful and a waste of energy/emotion. I knew I had to get out and the only way I knew how was to hurt us both terribly.
I have the luxury of reflection now, and though it was a horrible time, I’ve come to be thankful that it ended. There was no way such a relationship could last the years of marriage - it was a childish and selfish one, with little room to grow as a person.
Finding peace and happiness within yourself is crucial to a successful relationship. Stop playing silly games, stop being overpossessive and overbearing on your partner. Don’t be so thoroughly naive to think such behaviour may form a firm foundation for a life together.
Be supportive, be adaptable to change.
And most importantly…
If you truly love someone, let them GROW.
Choc ripple cakeee
singapore through a waterfall (at Cloud Forest)
Do not rush into it.
Take it slow.
See how it goes.
Enjoy the company.
Do not overthink.
Could’t have phrased it better..
My newest obsession… Comes in a two-pack.
my newest obsession
So for the first time ever, I’m posting my annual reflections online. Here goes nothing…
2012 in one word? Amazing. It was a year that has been packed full with new experiences, self discovery and learning. So much has happened this year I feel the only way to do it justice is to review it monthly.
DEC 2011 Christmas
Spent Christmas 2011 in Henley-on-Thames, England with Uncle Alan, Aunt Swee Gaik, Aunt Amy, Samantha, James, Jin, Mom & Dad. Having only just arrived in England the day before, I was so excited to be in the UK for Christmas & NY! Also, tried my first ever pigs-in-blankets.
NEW YEARS 2012
The most epic NY ever started with tasting black pudding for the first time as part of a (extremely oily) traditional English breakfast. Drove out to the Stonehenge and then to Bath for some good ol’ sightseeing. Marvelled at the ancient architecture and the Roman Baths. It was stunning, such an experience to walk around a 2 world heritage sites in ONE day! Cherry on top fo the cake? Checked out Stratford-upon-Avon the day after and concluded our UK trip with Les Miserables before flying back to KL. Epic holiday say whaaaaaaaaat!
Morwell - the rotation that pretty much defined the rest of our clinical year. We were pushed hard and it was stressful, but we came out so much more efficient and confident. It really fast-tracked our transition from 4th year students to final year dental students. Strong friendships and living skills were a happy byproduct of our summer month in Gippsland. Who can forget spending Australia Day in the Immigration Park for a BBQ, berry picking and watching those awful reality tv shows!
Amazing silent disco at the St Kilda Festival with new friends! And of course a visit from an old buddy from WMS :) The best way to conclude summer? Sangria at the Suzuki Night Market of course!
Last but not least for this month, a very special little girl was born into our family - Jolene Tan :)
Visitors from across the world arrived in Melbourne for my cousin’s wedding! A busy month with all the relatives and rushing around M-town trying to eat everything with my other cousin Samantha and her beau :)
Easter church camp at Portsea.. and the start of a pleasantly unexpected friendship :) Discovering the meaning of relationships and the importance of keeping close to God.
Mom’s 60th birthday :) Celebrated at Shark Fin House and with a gift to introduce her to the world of technology - an iPad!
Relatively uneventful.. Had a visit from some friends from Perth, lots of catch ups with friends and really effecting my NY’s resolution for this year - build on RELATIONSHIPS!
Stressful month consisting of running around trying to get my patients sorted and my case ready for exams. Then, SHEPPARTON - where we celebrated FIVE birthdays (including my 22nd!), drove up past the Victorian border into NSW for a casual Sunday dinner in Tocumwal, walked around the neighbourhood in PJs, shisha-ed almost every 2nd day, had deep & meaningful conversations and had amazing home made strawberry ice cream from Cobram. Not forgetting creating an epic video for our research project… parts of which went viral amongst dent students (coughcough gangnam style..)
Spent 2 weeks in Alice Springs with my group partner on a fully sponsored elective trip! Lived in luxury at Quest Apartments (excellent study environment hahaha), lived the simple life out in a remote town only accessible by unsealed dirt roads. Then went on a 3d 2n tour to Uluru, Kings Canyon and The Olgas. WHAT AN EXPERIENCE to see such an iconic place and sleep under the starts in swags!! Definitely a once in a lifetime trip!
A very special addition to our growing family - Emma Wong :)
Exponential increase in stress levels with our research paper dateline drawing close, and more significantly, our final exams just round the corner. Spent many angry nights slamming words out for our paper wishing everything would stop to let me study. Then, a extremely unexpected surprise - getting an award for doing well in restorative dentistry last year! I remember feeling so undeserving yet grateful for His faithfulness in my life and running to the toilets in Frank Tate just in time for tears to stream down my face.
Week 1 - INSANITY, STRESS, DEPRESSION, RELIEF. Interview offer from GVH, Shepparton the day after the “results email”.
Week 2 - A strange sensation of being ecstatic and not knowing what to do with myself after finishing my final exams! Did the shepparton interview, and got accepted the day after! Absolutely living in the abundance of God’s grace and love.
Week 3/4 - Many catch ups, learning the ropes with accounting/tax, shopping for graduation.
GRADUATION - finally! Enveloped in love from friends and family. So thankful for every one of them!!
Saying goodbye to some really good friends “for good” was difficult. Mixed emotions of feeling so proud of them and yet, wishing they would stay :( And that brings us to.. now. Everyone has left for home/holidays.. leaving me quite alone and peaceful to do my tv-show marathons and turning my clock upside down.
So that’s a full circle. It’s now CHRISTMAS 2012, in Melbourne :)
What a year, what a life! Could not ask for more, Praise Him for all the blessings!
Thoughts on this year coming up in the next post :)